Day 26: Futuring

Where exactly do you see yourself in 5 years, Ajoke asks me

I say to her that I do not know

How am I even supposed to know, am I God that sees the end from the beginning

She side eyes me because of my defensive retort

I do not care, because I think it is a futile activity- to attempt to predict or plan one’s life 5 years from now, when we barely even know what will happen tomorrow

I could explain to her that I can plan and because life sometimes has a shit sense of humor, it could go either ways

It could go right, probably not according to my plans but to an extent, things would align

Or, it could all go to shit

I could have a list of goals and not one thing would fall in place, because life likes to show off that she’s the boss sometimes

I might not know exactly where I see myself in five years

But it does not mean that I am directionless nor ambitionless

I know what I do now that I enjoy, I might not enjoy it in the next couple of years, so why build my future life around it

However simply because I enjoy it now, I will continue to do what I do in the manner that I do everything else- with commitment and discipline and great motivation

Because it is my intent to live life to the fullest

So even though I do not know where I would be in the next 5 years, I know I enjoy where I am now and I live my life intentionally

I know I want success, in whatever I find myself doing

I know I want to attain financial freedom

I know I want to experience a fulfilling career

So I chase those things now. My actions now are actions I take that will set me up for this lifestyle that I desire

The specifics I do not know, I do know however the type of environment I want to live this life I have been given, and that is what I focus on

I’m building the environment that would enhance and amplify whatever I would be doing, when the time comes

I might not know exactly where I want to be in the next five years, simply because I do not actually know

But my Ajoke, when you ask me where I want to see myself in the next five years, instead of explaining all of these, because it is none of your business , I will simply tell you that I do not know because I am not God.